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Beautiful Goodbye.

gettrucked08 — Sun, 28 Aug 2011 10:37:22 +0000

I know it’s been ages. I must admit. This post is an emotion-driven one. I actually can’t contain what I’m feeling right now.

But first, I want to say thank you.

THANK YOU for creating this kind of love. THIS love that no one, no one until now has experienced. no wait. WE have created this love. Each one of us was there when we created this love. And what’s so good about it is that it kept growing – from us, to all the people striving hard to keep this world of ours growing. Thank you for being there for us. For me. Our Sapphire Blue world will keep growing.

Thank you for letting each one of us feel loved. You never failed to keep us remembered how much you care and love us. And since you tried to, even if you’ll be gone, we, I will never forget you. Come to think of it, your face now lingers in me.

Then, I should be sorry.

I’M SORRY for not being always there for you. I have reasoned that you have others as well so I might just leave you at times. But, hell I was so wrong about that. YOU were always there for us, for me. And it pains me to think that I have thought of such thing about you. I’m really sorry for that. I should be also sorry for not being able to appreciate you and what you’ve done for me in the start. I, always thought that you just do things in that way, never thinking that you HAVE always done things in that way because you truly care for us. For me.

I. Remember that I will always love you. from now and on.

Let me fill you up with happiness – I’m repaying you back what you’ve given to me. Let me cry, not because of weariness but because of my undying love for you. Let me be your wings – forever we’ll soar high.

always and forever. let me be with you.

“[HEECHUL's SPEECH]

Eeteuk: Thank you to Heechul for becoming one of the members of Super Junior, I love you.

Heechul:

The people I want to thank most is our members.

All the dongsaengs listen to what your hyungs say.

And my friend Jungsoo..

wuli Teukie is really very tired, thank you very very much.

Lastly, I want to thank our fans, ELF.

I will come back safely.

chinese tran cr: 凝幻@微博

english trans by @xavier_x007x from worldwideelfs”

it’s not the end. it’s just another and.

The Sun Died Out.

gettrucked08 — Mon, 08 Aug 2011 15:22:58 +0000

Enthralled by your sweetness, I could only mouth the words I want to speak of your austerity. We’ve been like this for awhile now, facing; now trying to end what was once we knew called forever. We never heard the shouts of our piercing voices; you, using your superiority on me, and I, using what I know is right. Yet still, we continue to write our irrational ditties; the literary of our ending.

You got up, and threatened me you’ll never go back. I’ve never felt so rapturous on thought of your leaving. But, you have concluded. And never did I presume of what have happened. All I know is, you came back with a big smile on your face. And for the last years, have I never seen you in such bliss. I was aghast; yet I couldn’t move from where I am. Nor did you moved from where you are. Suddenly, you moved your left hand, pointing it towards me. A loud click; I heard it coming from near you. Not a sound has escaped from neither. Finally, I can see both of us falling on the floor.

Trying to look up, I reached for my chest. Erratic, my heart started to pound like crazy. I can feel the warm gush of rebicund on my body; slowly enveloping me. Despite all of this, I could only think of one thing, my happiness; finally being able live to without you. Then at last, I let myself drift into the vast reveries of mankind.

I’ve always pondered on why did you take your life? I know we have fought battles to win for our own selves. How I wish I could still keep in touch with you and tell you all these things happening to me right now. There’s a lot who takes care of me right now; very unlike when I was still with you. By the way, I live in an enigmatic place no one knows, though I’ve heard few of us live there. And, I have a new lover; he always wears white. He looks just like you but I noticed though, he has a wounded hand.

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Cold Afternoon.

gettrucked08 — Thu, 05 May 2011 14:07:22 +0000

Yes. It’s definitely a cold afternoon. Not because the weather’s good but because of the loneliness in my heart.

THERE.

There goes my heart. Fluttering over someone whom I’ve been loving for almost 3 years, and on going. Of course. Of course. Why would I ever let go of that someone when I know he’s the ANGEL of my life?

BUT.

He’s happily in love with someone else. And, yes. I’ve been loving him secretly for those 3 years.

I felt a tear fall down on my cheeks. I wiped it out. Will all my love be in vain?

Yeah. I forgot. I vowed.

I have vowed to love him forever. Even if he doesn’t love me back. He’s my reality now. It’s not over yet.

NOT YET.

I should be a doctor first. Right. I’ll be a doctor first. Then.

Then and only then we can be together.

Please. Wait for me. Don’t put my love in vain.

angel.

2:45 AM

gettrucked08 — Thu, 21 Apr 2011 19:12:17 +0000

To be quite honest here, I’m still confused about what am I feeling right now. I really got emotional from what I just read. I’m actually crying right now. Does it sound absurd? Hell I think so too! But it’s just that, what I have read made me realize how much I loved this person. And, I don’t want to be presumptuous here. But, it’s really breaking my heart. And now, it’s like all around me is telling me that what I’m feeling and thinking and seeing is right.

Of course. It’s been a long time. A very long time indeed, since that fateful day that my heart decided to love him. And should I say that this very moment is fateful too? They’re not signs. But they’re obviously denoting something. I tried really hard. Thought about it over and over again. I knew from the start, it should’ve never been there. It should’ve never existed. But for crying it out loud, it did. And, fortunately or unfortunately, it grew. It grew from what I believe was surreal.

Now, I’m really convicted as well as confused. I’m convicted enough now to finally say and admit he really IS important to me. He really is someone special in my life. And that, he really made who I am. But, will all those things said, I’m still confused. Should I continue to hold onto you? Should I keep you here in my heart? And, should I keep on loving you till the end of my life?

Advance happy birthday by the way. I know it’s months away but, I’m not sure if I’ll be here to write something for you again.

You should know…

I love you.

Morning.

gettrucked08 — Tue, 29 Mar 2011 02:39:20 +0000

Morning.

A word which means the early part of the day, from dawn until noon or lunchtime. But for me, morning gives me the reason and the strength to go on loving you. Morning gives hope. It means that God has given me another chance to live and another day to love you. I cannot put into words how much this means to me. How much you mean to me.

We never really met. And probably, the slim chance of me, finally meeting you, will stay just a chance. But it’s okay. Because I know, loving and being in love with you gives me the reason to get up, to rise up and do my best so that when finally, that slim chance will turn to reality, I can say that, “I saved all my love for you.”

Boundless Fate.

gettrucked08 — Mon, 28 Mar 2011 15:32:57 +0000

It’s been years. And ever since, I’ve already know the truth. In fact, I’ve never been ashamed about it. But, only this time did I ever realize how much I’m in love with you. That, only this time did the truth ever sinks in. I’ve fallen so much for you. And the sad part is you never know any of this. You don’t have a single idea what’s going on in me. But you know what? What I find funny about this is that, despite of that fact, I am still in love with you. The pain grows day by day. No kidding. Why? Probably because of the distance between us. The greater the distance, the lesser the attraction. May be true to you, but for me, no. Because alongside pain, also deepens my love. Surreal. Because I’ve never thought of such possibilities. No. It’s not a possibility anymore. It’s reality. A reality that I perceived as an ideal. And it’s been long before I’ve finally proved to myself that what I’m feeling is the reality. It’s real. I should probably tell you that you’ve been my inspiration since. That it’s because of you why I wrote countless poems. It’s because of you why I’ve learned to finally, let my guards down. To finally, let someone in. I still may be cautious at times, but it’s a good start. I’ve always kept out people from me. Because I keep losing them. So I thought I better let go of them even before I finally realize they’ve left me. But you. It was always so different when it comes to you. From you that I’ve learned to breathe. To finally, accept the truth that people come and go in our lives. Because of my years-long hold on my love for you that made me conclude that I should save all my love for you.

I have vowed. My love should not perish but should flourish. I will nurture it. And I will surely treasure it. With you, I have realized that fairy-tales don’t exist because fairies don’t make tales. It’s you who will make them. And of course, it is also you that should do the storytelling part.

And from this and on, I vow to make my tales, with you, come true.

Surrogate No More

gettrucked08 — Thu, 23 Dec 2010 17:24:09 +0000

I got this feeling that I should write something before this year end. I don’t know why, but something inside kept bugging me. It’s been years now since I’ve known someone in particular. Well to be honest, I wasn’t that really interested in knowing him. Though I heard from the people around me that he’s no ordinary man, but I didn’t give any significance to him. It was only then when I got to know him more did I realize that he really more than the ordinary. For the first time I really gazed at his face, I knew it wasn’t something I was prepared for. A totally alien feeling has struck me. For the first time in my whole existence, as far as my age is concerned, never did I know that something like this does subsist. Long before his physique, I knew nothing but mere factors of life. Though these little fractions of life seemed to be the foundations of what made me alive, they weren’t substantial enough to keep me intact. I may have been gone through a lot but something is always lacking. Something has definitely to be filled up. But it was somewhat looking for a missing piece of a puzzle in a mansion with many rooms. I have to search every place that I can search of. And then, I found a surrogate. Willing to sacrifice itself for the time being while I search on for the real one. Of course I was hesitant at first. Who wouldn’t be? But I can’t say no. I just can’t. I don’t know why. I just can’t. And so, a quite period of time had pass, and I forgot that what I have now is just a surrogate. A simply alternative to what is lost. I had enjoyed myself very well to this substitute of mine. Never noticing that I had already attached myself to it. Forgetting that attachment to something is one of the biggest fears I have. And I admit at this point that I’m just a mundane human with a fear of rejection of others. I forgot that I shouldn’t have left my comfort zone and took that risked. I got really scared. When I say scared I mean it. And of course the first thing that came to my mind was to back off. Back off and distance myself. But, it was just a thought. I never had the chance to back off. It hugged me so tight. Yet, I was able to breathe. It was the first time that I tried my best to leave my comfort zone. And then, shockingly, I was able to leave it behind. It was the biggest jump that I jumped so far. A jump that carried away all the fears inside. Though I know all the things can happen to me, good or bad; I faced them with my greatest strength. He IS my greatest strength.
If I hadn’t taken that leap, I wouldn’t be here. I wouldn’t be writing this. But I know this is just the beginning. And now I have year to fight for. And yes, I will now fight back. Because someone BELIEVES I can.

Thoughts

gettrucked08 — Thu, 18 Nov 2010 05:49:50 +0000

Thoughts by enneilu

Every time I see your face,

I’m reminded that they’re not for me;

That even your trace,

Will be priced too much for me.

But how could I ever let you go?

When in the start you were never mine;

Yet, my heart is telling me so,

To keep on following your shine.

Reality was the cause of this,

Emptiness was another;

This feeling was a bliss,

But won’t go any further.

Emaciated physique,

Full of tears and tired eyes,

Frivolous clique,

Will you lead me to the skies?

I know I shouldn’t ask for more,

Cause there’s nothing you can do;

But I’ll be here, in yore,

Present or future; waiting in blue.

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Grateful Love

gettrucked08 — Sun, 19 Sep 2010 08:21:52 +0000

Grateful Love by enneilu

Ever since, you’ve always been there.
Since the darkest days of my life,
Till I saw the light that made it fair,
You’ve been there, by my side, in my strife.

Things weren’t easy for you,
Facing the world with your other half far away,
The quandaries that always made you blue,
But with God, here with us, you stay.

Unconditional love, yes it is.
It always has been, flowing,
Like the gentle river, I will surely miss.
In my heart, my love for you is growing.

It may not show, but there is evidence.
Forever will I cherish your love,
Your selfless acts, your presence,
And my witness is the heavens above.

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Spring Rain

gettrucked08 — Sun, 19 Sep 2010 08:08:29 +0000

Spring Rain by enneilu

It’s been a while since I felt something like this,

Something more special than a kiss;

Like the wind that is gently embracing me,

Like the tiny drops of water falling on me.

It was just another season passing by,

That’s why I didn’t give it another try;

But the rain drops differently,

The spring rain that I’ve been waiting so patiently.

This is something I will cherish forever,

A moment that will leave me never;

Flowers that are blossoming in my heart,

Giving hope for a brand new start.

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